Sorry everybody for not posting much lately. I am trying to fix that. I started this blog to try and get into something that my fiance is into. I have to admit, its not really MY thing. Not that I mind it or anything, just I dont have much to say right now, and I have a lot on my mind, and when that happens, sometimes I tend to do absolutly nothing.
I've been worried about my upcoming test. I finally got my test number today, so now I can schedule to take my State Boards for nursing. Its scary.
I worked very hard to get to this point, and I just don't want to fail. And then I think about actually be responsible for peoples lives and its a little intimidating. I mean, people will be depending on me. I kind of have that responsibilty now being a nurses aide, but its deffinitly a totally different spectrum.
All I keep thinking about is that test. What if I fail?...What if I pass? What if I can't find a job? What is going to be my first mistake as a nurse? Will it be big or small? How am I ever going to remember everything I need to know? I trust myself to do the right thing, and I know my boundaries and limitations. I would never put someone in harms ways because I was unsure about something. It's just so crazy to me that I'm going to be trusted with families loved one's in their time of need. Craziness.
Just ranting a litle bit. Really thinking about the NCLEX. Wow. Its Finally here.