Friday, September 30, 2011


Well everybody....I have some news.

I passed!

I passed my nursing boards on Monday and found out I passed. I am now a LPN. How bout' them apples?

I really left there thinking I didnt do to good because the types of question that I had were ones that i always got wrong in class. So I was worried, I even cried on the way home, half because the questions and I think half because of the stress and relief that it was over.

I'll have to keep you updated on the job search from now on!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

pic of the week

This is another winter pic. This time, the snow is starting to melt, but you can still see that the tree is frozen.

Monday, September 26, 2011

It's Now or Never

^This is how I feel^

Today is the day. In four hours, I will be taking my nursing boards. I'm freaking out. I think I need a Valium.

I was studying again last night, and I definitely hit the wall. There is no more to be memorized, there is no more to learn, this is all I know.

It's not even the test that scares me....which is strange. It's the "what-if" game I keep playing in my head. The whole reason I went for my LPN instead of waiting to get into a RN school is because I wanted to have a career and make more money then I'm making now, before we get married. Now it's here. I don't know what I'm, going to do if I don't pass this test. I'll be letting everyone down; Jamie, my parents, my teachers, myself. And if I don't pass, I don't know what my next step is. It will be probably impossible for me to pass it again.

I think I'm just making myself crazy. I feel like crying because of all the pent up emotions I have going on here. OMG!!!

It will all be done soon. No matter what happens today, I know I really did put my best into this and I need to try and give myself credit for that at least.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

pic of the week

This is a duck. I like this picture because of the detail. I like how you can see all the rocks in the bottom of the pond and ripling of the water by the ducks feet.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Monday, September 12, 2011

No Wedding Plans for the Bride

Me and Jamie are getting married in just about one year from now. October 20, 2012. We have been engaged since 2009, so you could imagine that I'm actually getting excited that now my wedding is actually an acceptable distance away. Well, most brides would be so excited to be planning their weddings, its all about the details. There is so much to think about and many decisions to be made that it doesnt happen overnight. I have been planning and researching this wedding since the time we got engaged; thats a long time. Now, I'm not saying I know all the details that I want, but I have a pretty good idea. However...eventhough we are coming upon the one year and counting's still TOO early to plan anything....

Nobody seems to care about any plans I might have or anything I might want to do. Now, obviously it's a little early to pick out my flower arrangements and things of that sort....all I'm asking is to start getting addresses together and finalizing the guest list ( I have save-the-date cards to send out soon) and go dress browsing. Apparently, thats too much to ask for too.

I give my mother and Jamie the simple task of getting some addresses for me that I cant get myself, his family members that I don't know, and my mothers work friends that I don't know. Was that done?....No. I don't know. Is that really much to ask. I want to be able to plan something but it seems like its still TOO early.

I want to go look at wedding gowns, but I can;t because my mother is not into it yet. She wants me to buy my dress in Feburary. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that, but I would still like to go looking at them. I have tried some on and I found one I truely do like and would like to show my mother, but I can't. It's still TOO early.

I would never have such a long engagement, but I was trying to give us e nough time to finish school first. I would not reccomend a long engagement unless you have family and friends that actually are involved and are excited for you.

Just sad I guess.

pic of the week

This picture I tok with a home-made camera, its the negative, which I think came out way better then the normal picture. Its just a rock. But I like the way it looks.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Sorry bout' the non-posts

Sorry everybody for not posting much lately. I am trying to fix that. I started this blog to try and get into something that my fiance is into. I have to admit, its not really MY thing. Not that I mind it or anything, just I dont have much to say right now, and I have a lot on my mind, and when that happens, sometimes I tend to do absolutly nothing.
I've been worried about my upcoming test. I finally got my test number today, so now I can schedule to take my State Boards for nursing. Its scary.
I worked very hard to get to this point, and I just don't want to fail. And then I think about actually be responsible for peoples lives and its a little intimidating. I mean, people will be depending on me. I kind of have that responsibilty now being a nurses aide, but its deffinitly a totally different spectrum.
All I keep thinking about is that test. What if I fail?...What if I pass? What if I can't find a job? What is going to be my first mistake as a nurse? Will it be big or small? How am I ever going to remember everything I need to know? I trust myself to do the right thing, and I know my boundaries and limitations. I would never put someone in harms ways because I was unsure about something. It's just so crazy to me that I'm going to be trusted with families loved one's in their time of need. Craziness.
Just ranting a litle bit. Really thinking about the NCLEX. Wow. Its Finally here.