Monday, August 8, 2011

What Really Grinds My Gears

This week, this rant is more about what puzzles/saddens me more than what angers me.
Like many of you, I have a job. Weird right? Well I work in a hospital as an aide. This is pretty much the only real job I had since the only job I had before this was a typical "first job" for a kid in high school. I have been working there for about 5 1/2 years now, and what gets me, is the fact that I don't really have any friends there.
What puzzles me more is that, I have been there for a decent chunk of time and have no friends, but people who come in brand new are friends with the whole staff by 6 months in.
I'm not saying I need to make best friends with everyone in there, because I go to work to do my job, make some money, and hopefully keep as many patients as I can comfortable. But, it still would be nice to have someone I can take a 15 with or have someone I talk to or see outside of work.
Maybe its me? I'm not a very outgoing person, but I'm also not a loner either. I'd rather be around people then be alone. I say my hello's and how are you's, and I do have mindless chit-chat with my co-workers, but I can't say I would indulge anyone with my personally life ( because I don't know anyone like that, not because I'm against it). I mean, I do talk about new things that are going on in my life, like school, nursing, or wedding stuff, but that's about it. I don't know. I guess its me? I guess I need to be more outgoing, but I feel like it takes two to have any kind of relationship, why does it seems like I always have to be the one to be forward first?
Well, I won't be at this hospital for much longer. I just graduated an LPN program, and they do not hire LPN's there. So I will have to be finding new employment hopefully by next month. I am excited about starting fresh and giving a new name to myself at wherever I end up.

9 comments:

TS Hendrik said...

Maybe a change environment is what you need. I had a place that I worked at where for whatever reason I just never clicked with anyone. Then I've worked places where I get on with everyone.

Bouncin' Barb said...

Congrats on your LPN license. That's great. Hopefully you'll find something better with nicer people who will become good friends as well as co-workers.

Joshua said...

I'm friends outside of work with one person, and that's only because she and I worked together somewhere else prior to here. In all honesty, I don't want to be friends with anyone from work, and outright ignore their Facebook friend requests. I'll strike a work-life balance, but work doesn't need to be in the other 13 hours of my day.

Pat Tillett said...

congrats on the LPN!
I had a similar complaint on a job a long time ago. One day we had to complete a 360 degree evaluation. you are rated by the people who you work for, the people who work for you, and the people you work with. I was VERY surpised to find out that a lot of people found me to be aloof! I was so amazing by that because I didn't feel that way at all. As luck would have it, there was a mental health benefit through that job. I took advantage of it and found out that I was aloof, but only because it allowed me to keep a wall up, between myself and others. I had no idea, but with my background it made perfect sense. I'm not saying you are like that at all, I'm just say that I was pretty f'd up back then.

Baby Sister said...

Congrats on your LPN!! That's awesome!! I'm sure it has nothing to do with you, but a change of scene might be nice, that way no one will no you and you won't know anyone. You can have a fresh start!!

Rawknrobyn.blogspot.com said...

You're probably better off. People who aren't friendly aren't worthy of your friendship. That's what I always say. Not really, I just made it up now, but it's true.
xoRobyn

Powdered Toast Man said...

People are douches. That is all.

Shockgrubz said...

I hope the staff at your next place of employment is much friendlier. You'll make some pals there, for sure.

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