This week, this rant is more about what puzzles/saddens me more than what angers me.
Like many of you, I have a job. Weird right? Well I work in a hospital as an aide. This is pretty much the only real job I had since the only job I had before this was a typical "first job" for a kid in high school. I have been working there for about 5 1/2 years now, and what gets me, is the fact that I don't really have any friends there.
What puzzles me more is that, I have been there for a decent chunk of time and have no friends, but people who come in brand new are friends with the whole staff by 6 months in.
I'm not saying I need to make best friends with everyone in there, because I go to work to do my job, make some money, and hopefully keep as many patients as I can comfortable. But, it still would be nice to have someone I can take a 15 with or have someone I talk to or see outside of work.
Maybe its me? I'm not a very outgoing person, but I'm also not a loner either. I'd rather be around people then be alone. I say my hello's and how are you's, and I do have mindless chit-chat with my co-workers, but I can't say I would indulge anyone with my personally life ( because I don't know anyone like that, not because I'm against it). I mean, I do talk about new things that are going on in my life, like school, nursing, or wedding stuff, but that's about it. I don't know. I guess its me? I guess I need to be more outgoing, but I feel like it takes two to have any kind of relationship, why does it seems like I always have to be the one to be forward first?
Well, I won't be at this hospital for much longer. I just graduated an LPN program, and they do not hire LPN's there. So I will have to be finding new employment hopefully by next month. I am excited about starting fresh and giving a new name to myself at wherever I end up.